I needed this weekend MUCH more than I realized.
I know I’m giving you more of a “Krista” update than an Annabelle one, but bare with me.
The last 2 months I’ve been running on complete empty. And it’s taking its toll. I know, I know, we’ve been here for a LONG time and this is all totally understandable, but still. I’d reached the end of my ability to function on a half-way normal level. I was to the point where I wanted to cry about every 5 minutes, and whenever someone asked, “How are you doing?” I had to say, “Good” and run quickly before I started sobbing.
What made this most frustrating is that Annabelle is fine. Besides every 3-4 days running a fever, she’s been very stable. That made it worse, I think, because I kept telling myself I should be STABLE myself and shouldn’t be feeling so utterly crappy.
I still can’t put it all into words, but something needed to change before I really lost my sanity.
I’d love to tell you that something DID change, but really, it didn’t. But I DID get a really good, relaxing weekend, and WOW I needed it.
My weekend recap:
Friday: My husband surprised me and took me out for a nice dinner. The evening was beautiful, we didn’t argue about where to go, and we just chilled.
Saturday: Melissa (Anna Reese’s Momma) and I took a walk to the little shops on the main street here near Vanderbilt and ate out for a late lunch/early dinner. We just took our time and perused the cute (but yikes expensive) stores. It was fun to dream:-)
Oh, and I rearranged Annabelle’s room on Saturday too!!! Her crib is now sideways. Her room is much more spacious now!
Sunday: I slept in until 10:30 (can you tell I was tired???) I walked over to the hospital from the Ronald McDonald House (and walked back and forth once since then too, woohoo for exercise!)
Annabelle got another wagon ride, which she loved! We even picked her up at the hall windows and let her see the pretty day outside! Since she has never BEEN outside, she wasn’t sure what to think about it!
And G-ma and G-pa Johnson came to visit (they hadn’t been in a while since they’ve been sick.)
I also let myself take time to brainstorm and work on one of my unfinished books, and I got some really FUN ideas for it that made me excited, so YEAH for that too!
The rest of my family went camping Sunday night (tomorrow is the start of spring break for my kiddos) and while I wish I could have gone with them… I’ll be honest and say I’m not a HUGE sleep on the ground kinda girl, so I’m praying that they have a GREAT time. My kiddos and my hubby need some FUN times too!
To sum things up: I slept. I walked. I read. I wrote.
And I did a good bit of praying. Not long indepth prayers (which I probably should do more often too) but a lot of, “Okay God, what should I do now?” and “Okay God, I’ll give this to you, too” kind of prayers.
I’m hoping this GOOD weekend will give me the boost I need to get me through a little longer.
And I’m praying with everything in me that God will let us be home… as a whole family… with a WHOLE HEART, very soon.
THANK YOU again to all of you who are praying for our Annabelle and for our family. Our thanks cannot be expressed loud enough. We feel every single one of those prayers!!
OH!!!! I can NOT forget the other BIG BIG thing that happened this weekend!
On Sunday (technically today, I’m writing this late…) Annabelle celebrated her 8 MONTH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!