Skinny Friday Update: I failed. It was a bad week. I’m about even or up a pound.
Bootstaps: pulled up.
Operation: Do better next week.
As a side note, my husband is doing amazing. Putting me to utter shame. Gotta get my A game on and beat him!
Went to the eye doctor yesterday. Annabelle has to have glasses.
We also have to “patch” one eye two hours a day.
Hmmm… YOU try putting a patch over an 18 month old’s eyes for 2 hours a day and wearing (on top of the patch) glasses on the same face that had tubes out gallore this past year and she is sensative about and lets NOTHING near.
Yeah, this is not good. Not good at all.
I know she needs it. I just…
I’m mad. Okay, maybe not mad. But irritated. At God.
I just want to scream, “REALLY???? You don’t think she’s been through enough???”
I know. It’s dumb. It’s just glasses. A ton of people need them. It’s not a big deal.
But I’m struggling with this. I cried in the eye-glasses store today (right along with Annabelle.)
And I’m overwhelmed. I LOVE being home with my Annabelle, but between meds and feeds and doctors appointments and therapies not to mention taking care of my other three kiddos, my writing, and trying to keep up with the house (which I’ve been utterly failing at…) I’m now adding wrestling daily with my daughter to keep glasses and an eye patch on.
Okay, I’ll stop complaining. because really it’s not about me that I’m frustrated with. It just hurts my heart to have to add this to Annabelle. She’s adorable, glasses or not, but it just feels like this foreign “thing” that is scarring her face when we are finally “thing” free after having “things” invading her face for so long (i.e. ventilator, NG tubes, oxygen cannula…) She hates anything on her head/face. And I’m adding more for her to hate.
It’s for her good. I know, I know, I know. She’ll be able to SEE (and considering her seriously bad vision, it’s questionable how much she’s seeing without them, the girl has some serious blur going on!) and seeing is a GOOD thing.
I promise, I’m done complaining this time.
Pictures to come on Monday. As soon as I get her to keep them up for more than 2 seconds….