Have you ever had this rush of excitement that overwhelms your whole spirit but you have no clue where it came from?
That is how I feel today. I am sitting here, knowing I should get ready for bed, but I feel bubbly excited. I guess I am feeling a bit hopeful today, and hope is something I cling to like my life depends on it these days, which it does!
There is alot going on in my life right now that doesn’t look so hopeful. My Mom and Dad are in IL right now with my grandparents. My Grandfather (my Dad’s Dad) is having his leg amputated tomorrow. His health has been deteriorating, and he has age onset diabetes. He is almost 91 years old, so this is all to be expected, but is a difficult time. I have all my grandparents still living at the moment, and I know I am lucky for that, but it will be very difficult to lose them. On top of this, my grandmother (my Mom’s Mom) has terminal lung cancer, however she is beating all odds, Thank You JESUS!!! They gave her six months to live last summer, but she is still going strong, just a little weak in the mornings now. The Lord has kept her around for a reason and we are thankful for each and every day we have with her!
My other grandmother has alztimers, and my other grandfather is in his 90’s and is wearing out,as my mother calls it. It is sad, and all a little overwhelming. I mostly am in prayer for my parents, as I know the next year or so will be pretty rough on them.
I say all this to say, I don’t understand fully where this excitement is coming. There is so much to do everyday, and so many not so things going on, I keep telling myself that I should be overwhelmed, I should be struggling to cope, but, then why do we do that? Or, should I say, why do I do that!?! God’s strength is sufficient and GOD gives us hope. Why should I question the joy he has given me? This IS the day that the LORD has made, and no matter what happens, we SHOULD rejoice and be glad in it.
So tonight, I am thankful. Thankful that God has given me a story, thankful that God has given me hope and thankful that he has given me peace. I am thankful for the many years I have had with my grandparents, and am thankful for each day more that they are with us.
I choose this day to be courageous and be strong. I choose this day to live in the hope that is only found in Jesus Christ. If I sound hokey.. well… I guess I don’t care right now!! *grin*
God bless you everyone!