Annabelle has a fracture of her femur:-(
Her and I were “practicing” standing up, meaning I was trying to get her to set her feet on the ground and straighten her legs, and she was doing good until her left leg buckled underneath her at an weird angle.
She screamed and screamed, and Momma cried and cried with her as I rocked her. I put her to nap shortly after, thinking rest might make her feel better.
But she woke up crying, and whenever I move her leg, she cries.
So I called the doctor, took her to get an Xray, then they just called me back (we’re at home) and told me there is a buckle fracture above her knee on her femur.
The doctor said she probably has weaker bones due to questionable nutrition for so long, all her meds, and just being in the hospital for so long, which makes them break easier.
I’m just… beside myself, to say the least. I *know* it was an accident and not my fault, but I keep thinking if I just wouldn’t have pushed her so much, if I would have stopped the first time she stood and not made her try a second time. I just… I’m just so completely over this.
We should be going to see the orthopedic doctor at Vanderbilt sometime tomorrow. Not sure what exactly they do for a buckle fracture of the leg. I can’t imagine poor Annabelle in a leg cast!!! Holy cow. I just… My mind isn’t wrapping around this well.
I just want to say… really God? THIS TOO??? Has my baby not gone through enough???
And then part of me is selfish and tired and just so over all this too.
But… God knows all this too. I’m so thankful that He understands when we’re tired and give out and not in the greatest of humor. He carries us then too.
I’ll update again tomorrow after we see the orthopedic, as to what they decide to do.
Your continued prayers for us are appreciated, especially poor Annabelle. She’s hurting a lot tonight, and screams everytime I move her at all. I might just let her sleep on the floor tonight so I don’t have to get her up!!! Giving her tylenol every 4 hours as she needs it. *sigh*